I just been doing me since 09 dropped....

And when your loving stopped thats when my money topped....

yea topped like overflowed, boy you know my love is gold

thats why your new girl she resembles me.....

we went to high school together, u ask her if she remember me?

Are you with her for the love or u just cant be alone?

Funny how people act after I'm gone

Rather after they gone, they always sing a sad song about

Now the world is against them

And how they friends really wasn't they friends

And how every good thing must come to an end

So Im looking but Im not looking.....

Every one has thier qualifications of what they are looking for in a mate. Me, I have qualifications but I'm not looking, really..... I want a honest, head strong guy who is opinionated. I Think that a guy should not be submissive because I will not know what is on his mind. I should be able explain what kind of guy I want in a short story better than I can just explaining it. I roll out of the bed, stand up and stretch. Look in the mirror and I wipe the crust out of my eyes and fix my hair with my fingers. I turn on my stereo and begin to vibe to the mix I just downloaded yesterday. Keri Hilson, Gucci Mane, Jay-Z, Lauryn Hill, Common, Nikki Minaj, Blok Beeze, Lotta Luccie, Ken, and Amerie, are pumping me up while I get my day started. I pick out my clothes, A sexy skirt and a dressy top with some high heels. I don't have to work today so why not look good! I grab a Balance(R) protein bar and eat it on my way to the shower. As I'm lathering up with my music on blast, I think about this guy of my dreams. Hes 6'1, smooth ass skin brown sugar complexion, Nice ass smile but he wear a gold grill with diamonds in it. He has a lot of tattoos. Sexy ass body. Nice size ..... LOL You already know. Feels like I'm rapping about this guy. But he keeps a low cut but he used to have braids, wears his doo rag so he stay with the waves. His style so clean always dressing fly, his car clean too it catch everybody eye, He smart as hell and he used to sell drugs if you asked him what he's done before he'll tell you all of the above. He smoke that good bag always keep his . He a ride or die nigga, stay down for his friends, he about his paper too dont gotta worry about ends. I dont know what it is about about a street smart nigga but it makes me kinda hot and he can't live with his mamma he got his own spot, He in school too goin for business management he wants to be like p. diddy He from new york and he wanna show me the city So he wanna take me one day...... His moms is a teacher and his daddy wasn't there when he was a kid so hes a mammas boy but every since he met me hes now mamas boy...... LOL This is jus a lil bit of my qualifications.....

Irrationaly thinking

Lost me But IDK Where.....

Is caught on a thought tonight.... Thats where most bloggers blogs come from right? I just realized I have lost myself but I dont know where I left me. I have alot of friends and they are very close to me. But Im talkin about LOVE.... When was the last time I really loved... Or was there only one time.... Over the weekend I spent time with a dear friend of mine. I really like him but we didnt have that kind of connection. We get along great but it was like we were playing the roles but not letting out emotions take place. Why is that. Im not doing it on purpose. I promise. Its crazy cuz some times I refer to him as my boyfriend when I know hes not but once again the actions sometimes confuse my thinking and the word just comes out. I'm not being very artistic tonight, just being real.... I could get used to the way my weekend went but.... There was something missing. I was just a friend. lol just like that Mario song. But im serious.... I ought to write a song about this or a poem.... Yep I will....
Dueces... Ari

Ok Yall I kno its been a while bUT KEN IS THE MAN!!!!

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Im not a groupie its just the truth....
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I'm back!

Disclaimer: Now I know I haven't been blogging in a minute but I have been really busy. But today I promise you will feel alright with that after you read today's post.

Lately a lot of the people in my circle have been going through some things and as much as I want to help it seems as though I cannot. I wake up this morning eyes still with crust in them, allergies beginning to flare up and it is only 5:30 am. I get up out of bed and I stretch yawn then throw on some shorts and some flip/flops. I only sleep in a t-shirt. I go down stairs and the struggle of daily life begins.

"Good Morning Granny"

"Good Morning baby"

"Did you wash up yet?"

"No."

"Ok let me get your stuff so you can do so."

"I don't know if I want to go today or not."

"Well, lets just see how you feel after you wash up ok?"

I take her the tub filled with soap water and her towel and wash cloth, hang her towel on her walker and set the tub with the wash cloth next to her bed.

Leave room.

Close door.

Enter dark bedroom. Go to dresser, grab allergy medicine.

"Ma, granny said she doesn't know if she wants to go or not today. Im going back up stairs be down in 10 minutes."

Mom replies, "She is going to want to go, she will change her mind just watch."

Up, up, up, I climb 26 steps, stop breathe, continue the trek to my room. Sit on bed, sigh.

Granny, 82y rs old. Legs have poor circulation so the always swell. She can't move fast enough to get to the bathroom so there is a potty in her room. Have to change it or else it swells. She has had 2 bad strokes and too many mini ones to count. 1 heart failure. And countless other problems. Slight dementia, a new one.

7 minutes pass. Phone vibrates, Ma shows on caller ID.

"Hello"

"She said she wants to go. I picked her clothes out."

"Ok, i figured she would once she washed up."

"Ok. See you when you come down here."

Grab a bottle of water, take allergy medicine, eat protein bar.

Stand up go down stairs.

Walk though kitchen, make a right turn. Walk into Granny's room.

She has her pants, socks and shoes on.

She needs her bra. I get one out of the drawer hand it to her and see if she can figure out how to put it on.

She hooks it on, but its twisted. Then she forgets to turn it around so I help her.

I turn it around for her and I unhook it and re-hook it in the back.

I help her put her shirt on. She wears yellow today. She looks very radiant in yellow.

"Did you brush your teeth?"

"Not yet"

"Ok I will get that stuff for you after I do your hair."

No reply, she just nods her head.

I unbraid her hair and take it out the pony.

I get the comb and brush and comb her hair. I comb it until it is soft. Her hair is long and gray with a streak of dark gray almost black. It is wavy. I get the grease and rub it in between my palms and rub it in her hair mainly around the edges to keep it from sticking up. I brush it and comb it into a pony tail. I braid the pony tail and put a rubber band on the end of it.

"Ok granny let me go get your toothbrush."

I go get the toothbrush and her pan. The pan is dirty so I wash it out in the kitchen. I get her toothbrush and I rinse it put toothpaste on it and take it to my Granny.

It takes her all of five minutes to finish.

"Now all you have to do is eat and take your medicine and you are ready to go"

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These days are gone. A month ago was different. The last sunset she saw was the most beautiful sunset ever. I know that she is watching down on me, and from now on the way I live the rest of my life will be different. I will live to make her proud of me. Because all I ever want is for her to smile.

Breakfast Lunch and Dinner (Fiction)

I just don't know what my fascination is with food. But I love it.
I don't know what it is about sex either, but I love that too.
Put both of them together and u get
Mouth Savoring
Tongue Tantalizing
DELICIOUSNESS
And don't forget.... Ecstasy.

Usually we have a little routine. You come home and dinner's ready. We eat. Then we sit on the couch in front of the fire place I'm sipping wine and your drinking a beer. Talking about our day.
But today was different. We both took vacation time and our day started in the kitchen...

This morning I woke up to the smell of bacon... And damn did it smell good! I go in to the kitchen and I think my eyes deceived me because there was another woman in my kitchen cooking BOOTY ASS NAKED!!! Now what was I to do. I'm in shock because I'm not a lesbian but she had a nice figure.. Just being real. And I say hello to the woman.
"Well good morning beautiful," She speaks. I'm in shock because this chick just called me beautiful. Where is my MAN??
And in he comes from the bathroom with only a towel on. WHAT THE FUCK?!? So I say good morning to my man and kiss him on the cheek!
He banters with the girl and says be careful now don't want that hot grease scorching your soft skin.
I have a million and one questions going through my mind. I must be dreaming! Because this is not happening.
My husband comes to me and says, "Baby, I was going to bring you breakfast in bed. Go back and wait in the room. "
So I play along and go back in my room. I wait.. I listen for moans of any kind. I hear none. So I'm still confused as to what is going on. I never jump to conclusions because I love my man and I trust him.
So the bedroom door creeks open. I see her come in with a tray with juice, whipped cream, syrup, and chocolate chips...
My husband comes in with nothing... So I'm kinda pissed cuz I'm hungry. And all she has is some juice and damn toppings!
My husband comes over to me and kissed the anger right out of me. With his hand in my hair and strength keeping me close. I became dizzy with lust.
Then the girl puts the tray down and gets in the bed next to me. And I begin to put two and two together. But this time it equals three. . .
She looks at me and pulls my bra strap down and grabs my breast and starts sucking on it. Awkward at first but once I closed my eyes I couldn't tell the difference. My husband got up and got some whipped cream and put it on my belly then took some of the chocolate chips and put them on top and began to feast all the while this girl is still sucking and licking on my breasts. I felt as if I had took a pain pill and was hallucinating. My head began to feel really light as my husband finished up the whipped cream. I told him it was his turn.
So I got up , made him lay down, and got the syrup. . . Now I was hoping this syrup would be used for some pancakes or waffles but not today. Today my breakfast was a sausage... A big juicy one. I pour some of the syrup on my husbands penis and started to lick it off. It tasted so good. So now with my mouth watering I continued to lick and suck on my husbands penis.
I totally forgot about the girl until I felt someone pulling on my panties. She pulled them off and grabbed my ass. I could feel her breath on my back side and then she bit my butt cheek! "Oww!" I moaned and accidentally grid my teeth along my husbands penis. He moaned and then my kitty got wet! The girl took both of my cheeks in her hands and licked kitty.
I'm trying to concentrate on sucking on my husbands penis so I ignore what ever the girl does. I grab his balls and continue to go up and down on his penis with my mouth. He grabs my hair and now I know that hes feeling it. His penis is hitting the back of my throat and I feel miss kitty getting really wet. This girl is doing her thing my legs are shaking and I'm still doing my thing licking on the tip of his penis. Hes still feeling it and then I suck really hard one last time because I can't concentrate anymore because I am getting ready to squirt all over this girls face and my husband now has both hands in my hair so I know hes is getting ready to explode. My legs tighten up and i feel his penis get even harder. And I scream and he moans and I taste my husbands relief in my mouth and this girl is licking me dry.
My husband gets up and looks me in the eye and kisses me dead in the mouth so passionate. His tongue exploring my mouth as if he never kissed me before. I could feel his penis harden up against my wet kitty. The girl is standing there behind us feeling left out. My husband lays me back down on the bed, ass up, and enters me from behind. Now I never ate a girl before but i thought I would give it a try. I motion for her to come over and I look at her kitty its similar to mines but not mines. Lol but I lick around it while my husband is trusting in and out of me from behind. My kitty gets wetter just looking at hers. So i take my lips and pucker up and kiss her lips and open them with my tongue and swirl it around. I am still hungry so I begin to feast. I am moaning and eating while my pussy is getting the business handed to me by my husband and the girl is liking what I'm doing because she is grabbing her breasts and moaning. I begin to lick and suck and play with her kitty. It tastes so good but not better than my husbands syrup flavored penis. I am getting ready to burst and I think she is too because her legs and my legs were gyrating uncontrollably. Who ever thought it could feel so good giving pleasure to another woman while getting pleasure from a man. I can feel her kitty pulsate as she gets ready to give me her juice and my husband grabs my ass and smacks it making me leak out some hot juices. He pumps harder and faster which tells me he is getting ready to come again. The same stroke repeatedly, as I moan from his trusts I suck on her clit and flick it with my tongue and we all begin to slow down, not wanting to, but our bodies are not ready for this explosion. But she came first and it was so hot and wet that it made me get soaking wet and the feeling was so great with my husbands penis inside of me that I backed up on it causing him to scream "Damn- baby -wait" then I reached back and grabbed his balls and they were wet from my kitty. And my husband pushed himself inside of me releasing a bigger nut than the first.
We were all exhausted. Well maybe I was but my husband said he wasn't ready to stop so the girl got up from the bed and my husband told me to turn over. I did and my husband started kissing me from my neck to my navel all the way to my toes and sucked each one individually.
My body couldn't handle all of this. I told my husband to hand me that glass of juice and I took a sip. Refreshing. But the girl got an idea and says, "Lets take body shots off of her stomach."
And so they did each taking turns licking and sucking on my belly ring. Leaving hickeys on my abdomen. I still feel like I am dreaming, until my husband bites my side and I moan. Taking a firm grim on reality and the sheets I don't realize that they are both making their way down my body. One on the right and the other on the left. They kissed from my kitty to my thighs and then back up taking turns licking my kitty. This was amazing. They were licking and kissing and sucking and then my husband put a finger in me and wiggled it around. I moaned and flinched and some how my hands were in forcing both of their heads to my kitty. She was ready for just one more nut. I was loving this attention especially when my husband reached up and grabbed my breast with his other hand. The girl moved my husbands head out of the way and began to dig her face in to my kitty. It felt so good and my husbands finger was still down there hitting that spot. I was getting ready to take off into Ecstasy my husband took his hand out and put his finger in my mouth. I sucked on it and the girl just kept on eating. I now had both hands in her hair and my legs locked up around her. I didn't want her to stop she kept going, licking faster and sucking so hard. I could feel my kitty getting ready to release a fierce one. She was still doing her thing. My legs began to shiver and tremble. I moan, my husband grabs my breast and sucks on it and then I scream and grind my kitty into her face. Ohh it felt so good. I let her sit there with her face in my kitty for just a second more and then I unlock my legs.
I look at the clock . It is now 5:00pm. It time for dinner. So I ask her if she would like to stay for dinner and she replies yes. So we all head for the bathroom to clean up and get ready for some real food. Mmmm