Side Tracked by Memories

I started off making a post to my poetry blog. But I went off on a tangent and ended up with this. I hope you like it...

It is so crazy how life can past you by
Reminiscing on memories can make you cry
The swelling of the eyes brings back many moments
But my only question is do you cherish them and own them?
Running through the cold snow knocking you down at the age of 10,
Can't I just go back to then?
Walking on the slippery ice, knowing if I fall its going to hurt.
Something like love.
I first fell in love with music sitting on the school bus listening to the Fugees. Singing songs about love and making you come back to me... Only to make you mines.
Brings back memories of all kinds.
Memories of friendship. Running around at recess, playing tag and and being BAD.
Memories of kinship, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches...I'm not sure if you remember but I do. Those gone memories are making me sad.
But Then what about more memories of music on the bus.. Ahh Jay-Z
he needs a minute no rush..
"Hard Knock Life" and "Friend or Foe"
My sacred memories, no one even knows!
My love for music has made my mind travel to many places
Let me get back to the memories, back to the basics
The days when I couldn't get you out of my face. Yelling "MYA MYA"
My favorite singer, who introduced me to a thing called heart break
Because "If you died I wouldn't cry because you never loved me any way"
But I cried when you left though, yep those "Tears on my pillow"
I can't remember how many times I cried. But I can remember how many times my heart was broken.
2. Two. Yess it was 2... One at the age of 18 and another at 20... There is this pain that you feel in the middle of your chest. You don't know what to do. You feel INSANE!!! For a second you become a ghost to yourself and not be able to control what you do or say. Then the loneliness kicks in. You don't know why you feel so lonely. You go to work and it feels like no one is there. You feel like going into "rehab". You feel so lost and vulnerable.
I digress. Time goes by so quickly...
Weren't we just in the park with the leaves beneath our feet as we ran with the wind in our faces. Don't I still smell the outdoorsy smell that you always smell like after being outside for too long.
I could swear we were just sitting in Culver's eating ice cream and burgers. Going to visit Baby.
Didn't we just go to the movies in the rain to see John Tucker must die? I thought I was going to melt in those rain drops.
Didn't we just go to the mall and stunt on everybody because it was your birthday? Then your mom made the BEST lasagna I had ever tasted!! The cheesiness was the best part. Besides the fact that I hadn't ate all day.
I thought it was winter again, when the best memories are made. So warm. So bright. But fall has some good ones too. Like in October when we went to that restaurant and had an actual date. It was kinda romantic. Just looking at you from across that table thinking that wow, I like this guy.
I remember pizza hut too though... All for you. I don't care if I was in school if you wanted some pizza, I brought it to you or ordered it to be delivered or something.
Or what about Apple-bees? Sharing that Mucho Margarita? It was soo strong. And the food was great!
I can smell the cilantro from the salsa at jaliscos!
This is just me side tracked by memories...