Can I Love, Actually

I have had it up to here! Do you really think that I am going to leave you just like that? The day I have really had it up to here, you probably wont even notice, but i would have been disappeared. How do you tell the one you love the most that you have been confiding in someone else because you feel ignored? What if you have given them warning after warning and they still don't care. They feel betrayed because they think your going to go cheat on them through the telephone or the internet. Its a long distance thing. Left alone, really alone. A thousand miles away and no one to hold you while you sleep. No one to kiss after a long day of work. No one to tell about your day because they are "tired" or "too busy" to answer one of the 5 phone calls you just made. So you feel empty and unloved because of it. I feel like damn. I just got your name tattooed on my body and you got mines too, but do i even interest you anymore. Not even enough for a damn phone call. Its a shame really when one person puts so much into a relationship only to feel like they're not in love only loving some one. Some one who used to demand to hear their mates voice every day and every unoccupied minute. What am i supposed to do? I say I am tired of the emptiness, i say i am tired of the loneliness but how do i say these feelings with out his ever so used quote of "Do you wanna break up? Yes or No?" In the back of my mind I am screaming, "Im soo sick of this shit. You want me to loose you? Well get lost!" How are women supposed to act when their men wont speak to them about whats bothering them? I can't even say how I feel because I am numb. I cried myself to sleep thinking "what did I do wrong?" Every night I think about how we are supposed to act as a couple. As a whole. Not me be me and you be you. Together. Then there's that old quote that goes "United we stand, divided we fall". And i wonder does that apply to us? Maybe So... To be continued...