Nobody's perfect but I thought you were perfect enough

Talk about being decieved. So after deactivating my facebook account because my boyfriend at the time said he was deactivating his; my brother calls me up and says, "hey I thought so and so and you decided to turn off your facebooks". And my initial reaction was wait we just broke up not even 3 days ago and if he is back on facebook it makes me wonder. So I get hot and sweaty and my blood is boiling and I am about to hit the roof. So i look up over my head and see my imagination working. I see a vision of my hands around his neck, right next to it is a vision of him and I making love, and above the two of them is a vision of me with alone and him with another woman. Now I know by now my brother is on the phone thinking, "Sis are you alright?" So I try to pull myself together and just answer his question. "Umm yea bro, y u ask that?" So he says "Well uh sis I hate to tell you this but I'm pretty sure your boy is back on here." So all of that 180degree blood went up to 200 and my eyes started getting ready for the flood. Just a month ago he was so into me, the best man I ever had even gave me money if I needed it. And now he's the same guy I knew when I met him. A womanizer. Looking for some other prey for another day. How come guys don't stay the same? I know us women change but, look at all we are going through well look at all I am going through. I am working my way through college and paying rent and paying bills I work 35+ hrs on weekends alone, and my car got stolen 2 and 1/2 weeks ago. So if you think I ever had time to cheat on you, look mister you were wrong. All of your insecurities have become mine and thats not right. I was not the jealous type, I could care less but when you tell me you feel a way that you don't really feel thats wrong. Is there a laughing clown or is the hell date lil man about to come out or am I being punked because I feel that this just isn't fair at all. But I know that eventually I will get mines. Some where out there is that guy for me maybe I have known him all my life or maybe I haven't. I just know that I am a pretty sincere person and this expectation of being the perfect cool sexy cute intelligent self determined girl is too demanding. So I'm taking the perfect part off. And as I peel that label off my forehead I ask for not one guy to EVER EVER EVER call me perfect or refer to me as perfect because after you keep telling your selves that you start believing it and once you find out how much of a bitch I am its gonna hurt.